We often say that, it is important to learn from our past experiences and lessons learned. And while generally I still believe that, recently I find myself wondering about this. It has all come about because I find myself wanting to put everything I have ever learned, taught, believed, behind me. Not rejecting any of it. More like toys I have played with, which are now worn and shabby and no longer hold my attention or interest. I keep thinking about a huge, beautiful door opening and stepping into a whole new world and level of experience.
In that space there would be an experience of what I’m sensing these days. That we are so much more than we think we are. Beings of Light and Love. What does that really mean on the material, human, earth plane life? The words are very familiar. But right now I have an inner something stirring. Part of it is not to fall into old patterns of thinking and seeing and being; such a strong urge to release everything I have considered as truth; honoring a lack of interest in past fascinations. It sounds weird but I want to stand unburdened by the past – everything – and feel the breeze and sun, my arms open wide as I actually allow myself the experience of who I truly am. I feel this with such intensity that sometimes I think I could jump out of my skin.
Standing in this inner space, I ask myself again. What is the relevance, right now, of all my life experiences? Well….having lived 82 years, I consider my life to this point as rich compost, realizing the fertile ground it provides for new growth. Perhaps that is the true relevance of all my experiences to this point. So much yet to contemplate. Tell me what comes up for you and your journey?
Just now, as I write this, it occurs to me that I want to be more thoughtful about drawing quick conclusions of what I may be learning in any moment. Pay exquisite attention to the present moment I tell myself. The Divine is communicating all the time, in every way, in every experience.
So long for now. Observing with interest what experiences the Divine may present in that receptive, fertile ground.
In Light and Love, Hedi