Yes, yes. I’m still here. My silence on this blog fails to convey how often I have thought about writing. The other day my friend Marion Z wondered why I have not been writing. That slipped some sort of gear in me and here I am. But, I hasten to add, as has happened before, that I decided to write and see if in the process I can discover the answer to my friend’s question.
One reason can be attributed to fast, unforeseen changes in my life.
Sometime last December, my niece Susan had a guidance that we should live together. Honestly, that had never entered my mind but immediately felt very appealing. Within a week we found a place and signed the lease. That motivated me to finally get rid of years of files and papers. Papers I wrote, courses I developed and taught, study papers of courses I attended, etc., etc. Let me just say that I’m down to one two drawer file cabinet and one book case, more or less. It is the most liberating feeling to be free of it all.
I moved in February, the boxes are unpacked and things are still finding their place. But most significant is the absolutely wonderful sharing of life with Susan. She is the most loving, kind, thoughtful, considerate, easy and fun to be with Light Being. I can truly say, that with the many people who shared my life over the years, this is number one, on top of the list of wonderful. I feel so blessed.
I’m again enjoying the awake, alertness that comes with moving, being in a new place. It is an automatic antidote to humming along on automatic and traveling in the hum drum groves of habits and routines one tends to more or less sleep walk through. I’ll spare you all the details of this current delight.
So, that is one reason for not writing; everything involved in moving and starting another whole new cycle. Who could have imagined? Not I.
Then there is this inner push and pull of what is worth writing about. Pretty much I cannot seem to make myself do it anyway. There just comes a moment when I feel an inner command almost, like this morning. Even so, it boils down to this on some subjects. About health for example. If someone is convinced that taking some approach is helpful and I happen to strongly believe it is harmful, does my pointing this out create more harm than good. The research shows that what we strongly believe helps, actually does help. The body manifests the belief. I for sure have plenty to think about on that score.
Just to be clear, I do believe that the body expresses forces way beyond my control. I’m simply talking about the part that all of us can influence.
Since I’m beginning to meander, it is time to stop for today. At any rate, not writing has been partly due to the fast moving pace of life changes and a strong desire not to do harm. Let’s see now what unfolds in this new cycle.
I’m feeling so glad to be connecting with all of you again.
In Light and Love, Hedi