It truly has been too long, waiting to reach a continuous inner calm before writing another blog. Once again, I’m reminded of the fact that, there are always ebbs and flows in my life. That achieving a desired state is momentary and then the cycle begins all over again, hopefully with some gained insight.
As I said in my last blog, the inner excitement of new discoveries was taxing my body. That state of feeling driven to the next enticing new bit of information, generally, all related to the quantum field, kept me going pretty much fast forward inwardly.
Having cut down drastically on my Facebook time, and trimming away what seemed reasonable, I found myself caught up in ‘having to’ get more calm. Pressure, pressure. This finally struck me as ridiculous.
Then I thought to do only what I felt like doing. Enjoying the simple every dayness of my day. Sipping tea on the balcony, watching the flowers and leaves in the wind, observing the sun patterns in the house through out the day, enjoying music, chanting/singing and most of all having friends come to visit. I am so blessed with the most loving beings in my life. Continuing with the Celtic Psalter as well as daily reflections in Mark Nepo’s The Book of Awakening, most days, and more. Peaceful days.
Eventually though, I found myself with a kind of restlessness and slipped into some old habits of mind. This observation led me to reflect further. The upshot seems to be, finding a way to live in two worlds simultaneously. I absolutely love the simple things of daily life and being in it with consciousness, awake. There is at the same time an awareness of solar systems, galaxies, the stars, the quantum field; that this lovely moment is a speck in the great hum of the quantum field; that everything is alive; that I am a part of all that is. And somehow this moment is a convergence of an unimaginable number of forces, creating this moment and the next and the one after that, on and on. When I sink into this realization deeply, all I can say is that it blows my mind, the miracle of it, the beauty of it.
At present, I’m experimenting with what will support my navigating these two worlds simultaneously. Being in the middle of a conversation and finding myself connecting that with some quantum concept and flying off in my mind has its challenges. But it is also quite interesting and fascinating. One thing I definitely have learned. For a while it will be better not to talk too much about this and focus first on grounding my own experience further.
So, that’s it for this moment. May all of yours be full of delight and fascination too.
In Light and Love, Hedi